What Do I Deserve?

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Life is the road untraveled
veiled in mystery yet beckoning every step forward
Life is progressive
yet thorny like the red rose out of concrete
forcing itself up from the ignorance of man
yes, life is the road untraveled
but it is also the road of experience
one grows tired of watching man grow, spew their grumbling hatred of their fellow man to others
then run and hide in cowardice against the burning sun of truth
one wonders........what do I deserve?
She looks at me like I've murdered her innocence
but she does not know me
all she sees is an empty shell only capable of violence
and she will tell her friends about me
I can only ask why but she says I already know why
leaving me wondering, "Is this what I deserve?"
They slap every stereotype across my face
predicting me, reading my cover but not flipping through my pages
they assume until their assumptions towers tip over
and no matter how many times I scream or try to calmly explain to THEM,
I am not what I seem 
they blatantly ignore me
Is this what I deserve?
Just what do I deserve?
All the answers? None of the answers? Partial credit on judgement? Do I deserve these scars of hatred across my arms, chest, legs, and mind? Do I deserve to speak against it? Against anything? 


And who am I not to? 

For Colored Girls.

What a very thought-provoking movie. But what I don't understand is why some people are saying that this movie is bashing black men. My first thought was that well, the movie simply isn't about black men at all. It's about the different colors in the original play that every woman has or should not have experienced, and where the women have gone from there. You can't speak for every man if you believe a good man exists, however few in number you want to believe is out there too. And what about Hill Harper's character? He didn't rape, kill, or leave a number of women disillusioned and forced to believe that this reality is their faults. So let's take the movie for what it is, not from the critics. Another part of me is saying that I wouldn't be surprised if someone walked away with an Academy Award either...Monique did it for portraying Mary Jones, and Halle before her....but I can't really fully believe that since Jennifer Hudson won for portraying Effie White. Take a closer look at what roles black actors and actresses are being awarded. Then ask yourself.....does Kimberly Elise get one? Loretta Devine? Anika Noni Rose? Thandie Newton? Ask yourself....what is the movie really about? Just some thoughts for you to ponder. 

-Ron

COLD WAR

Anticipation of Muse

I write in silence so I can hear my thoughts clear enough to record them into some kind of medium, be you Macbook or handcrafted from thought process to black or blue ink, whichever I grab first.


I need it in pen, might be lost on me in pencil....so I can scribble as far as my hand will go and my words will not be forgotten. Stabbing against injustice, I write in silence so I can echo my muse in hopes it will respond with good news and good views leading to nothing short of fortitude. 


Respond back quickly, muse. I need your guidance. I will not waver. You would tell me to remain hopeful. And so I await your return...as I write in silence so I can hear my thoughts....


-R.S.

SAW 3D

Enough said. =)

Purple Sky

This is for those young gentlemen who took their own lives due to bullying, being outed, etc.

This is to stand against indifference.

This is for peace and the eradication of ignorance.

And so, today, I'm wearing purple in their honor. I encourage you to do the same.

-Ronald S. 

Abstraction

I sit here thinking...what if I found the one person that made me happy? I'd be one happy motherfucker, wouldn't I? But unfortunately, there are no perfect people out there for me to search...everyone has an undercover fault or insecurity about them...I just feel like it's out there for me to discover, and I WILL find it...my lifelong journey is yearning to be fulfilled, my heart ready to be loved by someone deserving of it. And so I sit here thinking.... optimistically... I'm as still as the surface of water. I am patient. Not complacent. Eager, but not rash. I'm in pursuit...watch out.