Few Late Night Thoughts....about the L word

Love. 
What does it mean? 
You think you know the definition......until it manifests into something completely different.
You swear your own two will be sufficient enough....until you stumble.
It's just one of those things you can't be coy about. 
Yet it's blatantly obvious as displayed by the media.
People throw it all around on the basis of following your heart.
People claim to know what it is......but they are clueless.
As am I.

I once thought I could fathom the opportunities of love and all it had to offer.....
but it turned out.....I was wobbly like a child's first steps
Embarrassingly enough, I fell on my face.
Worse than that, I left some feelings suspended in the air.....putting them on hold, hoping they would go away....but they didn't....and they won't. 
Contemplating and wading through them won't make them go away..... 
but there's something missing. 
The change. Me.
I'm no longer considering the same options anymore. 
Someone once told me life is to be enjoyed.........and I've embraced it.
I've gotten more options out of it. I've become better for it.
Now.....back to love.............

Now I have all the answers, right?
WRONG.
I wake up, I realize I'm here by the grace of God, I go about my day, and then it hits me.......this lingering problem....my personal dark cloud. It still exists, possibly manifesting into something I can't.....handle? 

Weakness............taboo. You don't EVER mention it.........

Now, the climax. I must face this thing called love head on. Feelings will be hurt, but the complacency still remains. Love, you've given me a big challenge. I need to push myself further....further into uncertainty....further into faith...further into the truth. 


So here's to loving with no limits. Love until it hurts. And hope to God you can handle it better than I can. 


Sincerely, R.S.