Abstraction

I sit here thinking...what if I found the one person that made me happy? I'd be one happy motherfucker, wouldn't I? But unfortunately, there are no perfect people out there for me to search...everyone has an undercover fault or insecurity about them...I just feel like it's out there for me to discover, and I WILL find it...my lifelong journey is yearning to be fulfilled, my heart ready to be loved by someone deserving of it. And so I sit here thinking.... optimistically... I'm as still as the surface of water. I am patient. Not complacent. Eager, but not rash. I'm in pursuit...watch out. 

Oblivious

Some people are the epitome of obliviousness. And they can't be helped. I wonder about people like that...how can you live like that? Shaking my head won't fix a thing either. I just wish people would get the hint sometimes...damn......and then the same people want to ask questions later? Heh, good luck with that....


-Ronald S. 

I keep setting myself up for failure.

It's not easy being anyone other than yourself. And pretty soon it's gonna come out. So keep you legs crossed, you eyes focused on the blackboard, relax and ABSORB......

Repercussions

This song is stuck in my head! It's Repercussions by Lauryn Hill. Good shit. Nice to see Lauryn Hill still doing her thing, ya know? She's a talented well, everything! From producing to songwriting and performing, she's amazing-truly one of the best vocalists to grace a stage. But she acknowledges that fame wasn't what she wanted it to be....hopefully she has changed her way of thinking though. We can only hope for more music like this, I guess =) 

Few Late Night Thoughts....about the L word

Love. 
What does it mean? 
You think you know the definition......until it manifests into something completely different.
You swear your own two will be sufficient enough....until you stumble.
It's just one of those things you can't be coy about. 
Yet it's blatantly obvious as displayed by the media.
People throw it all around on the basis of following your heart.
People claim to know what it is......but they are clueless.
As am I.

I once thought I could fathom the opportunities of love and all it had to offer.....
but it turned out.....I was wobbly like a child's first steps
Embarrassingly enough, I fell on my face.
Worse than that, I left some feelings suspended in the air.....putting them on hold, hoping they would go away....but they didn't....and they won't. 
Contemplating and wading through them won't make them go away..... 
but there's something missing. 
The change. Me.
I'm no longer considering the same options anymore. 
Someone once told me life is to be enjoyed.........and I've embraced it.
I've gotten more options out of it. I've become better for it.
Now.....back to love.............

Now I have all the answers, right?
WRONG.
I wake up, I realize I'm here by the grace of God, I go about my day, and then it hits me.......this lingering problem....my personal dark cloud. It still exists, possibly manifesting into something I can't.....handle? 

Weakness............taboo. You don't EVER mention it.........

Now, the climax. I must face this thing called love head on. Feelings will be hurt, but the complacency still remains. Love, you've given me a big challenge. I need to push myself further....further into uncertainty....further into faith...further into the truth. 


So here's to loving with no limits. Love until it hurts. And hope to God you can handle it better than I can. 


Sincerely, R.S.

Not so bad.....

Ahhh Prose Moment!: Sometimes I feel I'm losing myself in my work and anticipating the oncoming stress of my life sooner than humanly possible. Is it because of my responsibility to the world? Is it because I can't go unchecked...or overlooked? It's better if I don't live and better if I can't love.....I'll wipe my tears away, I'll be ok, I'll stand strong and move on. Misery don't live here no more! But neither does my sanity. So now what? The world is closing in on me, and no one can help me. No one. Solitary confinement. 


(I like this. lol Facebook moment. Let's see how far I can "take this".....ehehe....


-Ronald S. 

Team Capricorn

So I've been reading some stuff about my sign (December 30 = Capricorn) and I noticed that I'm pretty much a Capricorn to the T. I just wanted to point out some things about it that apply to me :) 


1. The Capricorn man is motivated by his desire for success, money, status, and love (although love is usually last and least important on his list.) <--About love tho.........hmmm.....


2. The Capricorn man pursues his goals with a steady, unwavering determination. <--I try :) 


3. The Capricorn man is cautious in all he does. He won't start projects and adventures (when he has them) without thorough investigation and contemplation. He needs to have the security of knowing (or at least thinking) that his decisions will work out with the least risk to him. <--I mean, I don't obsess over it, I just make sure I'm content with the situation first.... :)


4. Security is the lifetime search for the Capricorn man; and he wants to find it in all aspects of his life. :) 


5. Capricorn is a loner sign and emotional relationships are a challenge for this man. He doesn't find it easy to place trust in another human being or share his feelings. Although Capricorn men appear cold on the outside, he really is a sensitive, loving person; he's just masked his feelings and emotions well for his own need for security. <---I did find it hard to trust people for a large portion of my life, but now it's a little bit easier to know who to trust and who not to trust. I'm surprised when I actually realize I have the capability to trust :) &&& I am one that will mask my intentions until...well....see #3 lol


Just wanna squeeze one more in there: If you want to impress a Capricorn man take it slowly and be ready for slow reactions from him; he'll have to contemplate everything before he makes his move. Once he's comfortable you'll discover a warm, sensitive, and compassionate man – it will be well worth the wait. CHEA. lol :) 

Yea buddy! #TeamCapricorn to the FULLEST! 


Hope this inspires you to get in touch with your sign :) lol