Tussle

Just a few thoughts. 

I CAN'T stand feeling like this.


I want to look you in the face and tell you how it's REALLY going down.


But I'm a ghost to you. You refuse to see what's in front of you. 


And then, part of me says I REFUSE to give myself up to someone like you. Too this and that and imperfect. 


So I ask myself if I REALLY want this.....and automatically the answer is no. 


Looking back on this, I'll laugh it off, maybe hate myself a little less. Oh, Ron, you were SO ready to jump in headfirst, but now you realize your ass MAYBE would've been better using the stairs to enter the cold water......


I guess I'm lucky to realize this now....with nothing on the line. 


I'm just.........in transition right now. The questions are piling up. And I have no answers. So I progress further into the future. Yeah. That's all I can do.


Guess this is my prose moment...lol